dEAdLy wAiT...

i went to work today with just enough money to get me to office...anlakas ng loob ano? if a lost even a peso from my money i wont be able to make it here and i dont even want to think about where i would end up...hahaha

anyway, im suppose to send you a text message about our "planned" meet later today pero subalit ngunit datapwat sa kadahilanang ako'y talaga namang gipit ngayon ay mukhang hindi ito matutuloy at kaylangan ko nalang ihanda ang sarili ko sa mga possible consequences na idudulot nito:

scenario a: magagalit ka, aawayin ako at makikipaghiwalay na naman(for the nth time...)

scenario b: you will understand pero sa loob loob mo iisipin mong pinaasa na naman kita

or

scenario c (ito ang pinapanalangin kong mangyari) : ok lang sayo as long as may dagdag ang share mo next cut off with no hard feelings

hay...(sigh!) medyo natanggap ko na at alam ko na rin naman na sa buhay naten, however dreadful the situation at hand is, lagi namang natatapos...actually the hardest part of the problem is always the anticipation...yung aknowledgement na may problema at ang pamomroblema ng problema. Actually habang palapit ang problema lalong lumalala ang anticipation which is funny dahil most of the time wala namang nagagawa ang pag-iisip at pamomroblema kundi dagdagan ang wrinkles mo, sirain ang araw mo, palalain ang stress mo, pahinain ang resistance at bigyan ka ng sakit. pero for some reason, ang tao ay di maiwasang mag-worry. kaasar kasi kahit alam mo namang kahit anong mangyari ang problema ay parang process: may beginning at may end, katulad ng lahat ng movies na may beginning, may climax at may ending and of course ang ending ay inevitable meaning di mo maiiwasan na matapos yun so whenever youre stuck in a problem all you need to do is to keep in mind that no matter how BIG the problem is you'll always get through. ang tanong lang dyan dude is HOW.

sempre may happy ending, may sour, may bitter, may bland hahaha pero definitely walang ending na NeverEnding and thats the good thing that we should be thankful for.

so ngayon i can say im in the middle of the "storm" na....tsk...tsk....tsk (sigh!) tapos na ako sa anticipation part which is good hihintayin ko na lang ang magiging outcome nito because obviously wala na sa kamay ko ang "bola" di ko na hawak ang susunod na mangyayari that is why im just readying myself for possible outcomes i just wish mapaghandaan ko lahat kasi madalas na-ooverlook ko ang mga bagay kaya naman lagi palpak

anyway ulet the only thing i should worry about right now is to make sure makakuha ako ng pamasahe pauwi...wahahaha!!!