LoNging...

Ive seen a picture of you today...nothing is new because i always see you in my mind..you are always in my thoughts no matter the distance..no matter what happened. other people may put doubt on your mind...they may have painted a not so very pretty image of me in your eyes but trust me when i say...i never stopped loving you. you have been a regular visitor in my dreams..in my thoughts. i have a special place for you in y heart that nobody can ever replace. i love you...you may not understand my actions or question me someday why i did the things i did. i may never make you understand. I'm not proud of everything that Ive done and its no use throwing blame to other people for we all know that no matter how mundane, it is always us, who are held responsible for things that happen in our lives. if I'm given the chance to do things over again I cant say ill do anything differently. Ive found peace and happiness where I am right now and I'm sure you've found your share of happiness too, though i know in my heart that you long for me as i likewise long for you. there are days i see you in every face i look at. there are a lot of moments that i wish i could hold you in my arms. I never wanted for us to part but i guess its fate. You serve a purpose that no one else can take. I know our lives would intertwine again someday and i look forward to it. i look forward to the day that i will be able to hold you again, feel your embrace and hear your voice calling out my name. I miss you so much and it hurts not being able to let you know how i feel...it hurts so bad that i have to bury you deep in my heart for the meantime and try to forget the longing that i feel..i would just have to find solace in the thought that one day...one day...the wait will be over and i can call you mine again.