"Paramdam ka naman po.."
"I miss you Mac ko..."

these are the words...messeges rather that made my day...i think the word RUINED would be more appropriate. why do i keep on stumbling on these things..is it a sign? are YOU once again waving a huge red flag infront of me? am i to give meaning to all of these or ignore it and keep blind faith to the second man ive entrusted my heart to. im beginning to get scared. but i dont want tobe carried away by my ever unreliable emotion especially now that my hormones are doing a nice job whacking my logic and blurring my perception on things. DAMN!!! why does my mind keep on replaying those words on my head.."my Mac".."my Mac"..."my Mac"..

is she really calling him hers?
forget it, its probably nothing..he never responded in the first place..
but did you notice the date? its just this month... (getting teary eyed)
so?...he never responded..
but she is callin him hers and misses him..they probably have sumthin going on between them..
hey..relax..he never responded..
thats the thing..he never cared enough to sever watever it is theyve got going..
how can he?..he never responded..
the chick probably still thinks whatever it is they have...they still have it
calm down ok..he neve responded..
are you f#*@ing gonna keep on telling me the same thing?!

hey brain! ur definitely not helping..thank you!