iN LoVe....

"There are some people who meet that somebody that they can never stop loving, no matter how hard they try. I wouldn't expect you to understand that, or even believe it, but trust me, there are some love that don't go away. And maybe that makes them crazy, but we should all be lucky to end up with that somebody who has a little of that insanity. Somebody who never lets go. Somebody who cherishes you forever."

wow, this is sooooo touching and romantic. my heart feels like it was melting and i could just feel the warmth inside. most people would be lucky, like very very very damn lucky to have this kind of love in their life but unfortunately, these "lucky ones" fail to realize how blessed they are until they lost their chance to appreciate that wonderful person in their life. Some of us might even be unconciously pushing them away and the harder they try to stick with us the harder we push them away only to realize at the end that what we were pushing back is the only thing we want the most in our life and the only thing that makes us happy....haaay! I just wish you would finally realize ive been with you, stood up for you, fought for you, saw through you all the worst and best, that i have loved you more than anyone else could but im hurting all this time. im hurting because you never seem to care. you never seemed to notice how much ive given up for you, how much ive loved you...all i want is you and to be with you and be loved by you, is it really too much to ask? My ultimate wish right now is to undo this crazy love in my heart so i can stop hurting and finally let go, so i can stop loving and finally move on, so i can stop hoping and finally retire to be one of "those people" who has this insanity of never being able to let go of a love that by all accounts seems to be wrong. All i wanna do right now as the last concious effort is to shout at you on top of my voice: "DAMN YOU!!!! Dont you ****ing know how ****ing lucky you are to have me loving you as crazy as this? and i must admit, even if i do really find the courage (which by the way i very much doubt that i will) to leave you and let go, you will still be the only one id cherish in my heart and in my life. I love you sincerely, utterly, unshakably, honestly with all my hear and my sould and with everything i am..., tma na mushy masyado. kaluguran dakang sobra sobra!