hey..its been a while. I havent posted for a long time. ok its not a while.. i know its unexcusable...i know. im slacking off. but i just couldnt find the urge you know..im having...now what do they call it again? a writer's block? hehe...close enough. its just that i am not inspired while facing the monitor. i usually get my inspiration elsewhere. and that elsewhere is far from the conducive place for writing. i may get inspired on a tricycle, sometimes on a bus, other times while eating my lunch on a smoke-filled elevated floor of the canteen. its the same passion, the same urge, the same level and everything its just not the appropriate place to write and so what happens is that i still let my creativeness flow out, but sadly it just goes to the wind. carried or blown away, never coming back because i dont have any memento of it...any evidence of each wonderful idea or phrase or train of thought that visited me that day. its saddening to think that i loose a part of me each day. a part that i should have documented and recorded, or at least blogged about. i just wish i can have it all back again while im right here typing. so i can capture everyt thought and seal it. and then ill be comforted coz i know i have it and its not gone to some place it wont get appreciated...or visited again.